AT A TURNING POINT?

At a Turning Point?
Thought to Ponder . . .
When I change the way I look at things, the things I look at change.
There came a time in my life I stood, out of a combination of desperation and despair, at a turning point. The options were clear. I could slide all the way into a dark world OR choose to turn my life around. Have you or are you there?
I was living separated from my wife, estranged from my children, friends were worried, I was depressed and my self-esteem had all but disappeared. The only thing that was positive is that I functioned at my job and had not YET fallen into financial disarray. Notice I said yet.
In some ways I was living in a fantasy world and my false pride told me I was not in trouble, yet the other part of me said I was. I was truly at a turning point.
My life was kept together by the use of booze, drugs and using other people to escape reality. Drugs and booze had not YET become daily, other escapes, some involving computer use, had.
There are literally millions of people out there that had been in the same position as me, and had transformed their lives to a point they had contentment, hope and serenity.
I wanted what they had and from somewhere got the courage at this turning point to choose recovery.
There was and is no one right way for me to get there, but I decided to take action. Through some trained professionals (the start happened to be a marriage counsellor) I was exposed to the 12 steps, a group approach and other support. I was not ready for a 12 step fellowship. I did go for intense counselling and finally decided to take action as a life priority.
This reading from the book Alcoholics Anonymous stuck out:
Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point.
We asked his protection and care with complete abandon.
- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 59

This made sense to me. I had to stop trying to do things my way-in half measures. I had to do what millions of “WE” had done, and get the help and take the action as a top priority in my life. With gratitude and after continuous work, things turned and the turning point was left behind and life moved positively forward.
Please feel free to contact me if I can provide more detail. Tomorrow I’ll blog about some of the promises that were made known to me and in fact came true!